Trauma Recovery

On the Road to Indifference

Chump Lady says that the best thing you can do when you have been chumped is to get the the land of Meh just as soon as possible. Meh is not easy. Meh is hard! Meh = Indifference. It is that point in your recovery from Betrayal Trauma when you don’t think of your Cheater, either good or bad. indifference is the goal.

“Meh” — that liberating place of acceptance — is where you no longer are consumed with cheater drama. You don’t love them. You don’t hate them. You sort of pity anyone within a five-mile radius of them, but their existence doesn’t rock yours anymore. You’re Meh. Whatever.

Chump Lady

Trust That the Cheater Sucks

One of the things that keep Chumps from getting to Meh is that they do not trust that the Cheater Sucks. Chumps keep holding out hope that the Cheater will come to their senses and want their life, wife, and children back, otherwise know as, smoking “hopium.” But I thought my Cheater was “special” or “different” and worth holding out with my best hope for reconciliation. I just could not phathom that he would willingly give up his amazing family for someone who is clearly a step down. Logically, it made no sense to me. It still makes no sense! The most glowing thing he can say about his wifestress is that she is “nice” to him. Did you catch that? He is in a relationship with her because he was willing to give up his family, children, and grandchildren, and his best explaination is that she is “nice to him.” (Insert eyeroll here.) Trust that he sucks! Once I could trust that he sucks, I stepped on the Road to Indifference.

The Pick Me Dance

So I did the pick me dance way longer than I should have. I, mistakenly, thought I could win him back! I mean, I had 38 years of solid credibility! Why wouldn’t he pick me? The “Pick Me” Dance” is how the cheater gets the wife to prove to him why he should choose his wife of decades over his mistress of weeks or months. This is another piece of the infidelity puzzle I did not understand. So I danced. I danced for a long time with no success. I didn’t realize that he was never going to pick me. Once I stopped dancing the “Pick Me Dance” I step on the Road to Indifference.

No Contact

The biggest single thing I did to get on the Road to Indifference was to go No Contact. No contact is a game changer! The “no contact” rule is important for a number of reasons, most important of which is that it is an effective coping mechanism to help you move on. The “no contact” rule has certainly worked not just for me, but also for a lot of other people. In a nutshell: Without any physical reminders about your ex, you’re able to get over the breakup in a shorter span of time. The single most critical thing I did to get on the Road to Indifference was to go no contact. And I am talking about this kind of no contact, not this! Some people go no contact to get their ex back. I am not talking about that kind of no contact! I am talking about the kind of no contact with a narcissist. Make not mistake, Cheaters ARE narcissists! And being cheated on is abuse! The last thing you want to have back in your life is an unrepentent cheater. Real no contact is a game changer! Going No Contact is stepping on the Road to Indifference.

No contact is willing yourself to not engage with crazy.

Chump Lady

Maybe Taylor Swift said it best in her new song “I Forgot that You Existed.” I love that she so beautifully describes how she would have done anything for her cheater, but he was just too dense to get it. Yeah. “It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference.”

“I Forgot That You Existed” by Taylor Swift

I Forgot that You Existed

[Verse 1]
How many days did I spend thinking
‘Bout how you did me wrong, wrong, wrong?
Lived in the shade you were throwing
‘Til all of my sunshine was gone, gone, gone
And I couldn’t get away from ya
In my feelings more than Drake, so yeah
Your name on my lips, tongue-tied
Free rent, living in my mind

[Pre-Chorus]
But then something happened one magical night

[Chorus]
I forgot that you existed
And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t
And it was so nice
So peaceful and quiet
I forgot that you existed
It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference
I forgot that you

[Verse 2]
Got out some popcorn
As soon as my rep started going down, down, down
Laughed on the school yard
As soon as I tripped up and hit the ground, ground, ground
And I would’ve stuck around for ya
Would’ve fought the whole town, so yeah
Would’ve been right there, front row
Even if nobody came to your show

[Pre-Chorus]
But you showed who you are, then one magical night

[Chorus]
I forgot that you existed
And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t
And it was so nice
So peaceful and quiet
I forgot that you existed
It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference
I forgot that you

[Bridge]
Sent me a clear message
Taught me some hard lessons
I just forget what they were
It’s all just a blur

[Chorus]
I forgot that you existed
And I thought that it would kill me, but it didn’t
And it was so nice
So peaceful and quiet
I forgot that you existed
I did, I did, I did
It isn’t hate, it’s just indifference
It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference
So, yeah

I am not yet completely indifferent. But I am well on my way thanks to trusting that the Cheater Sucks, refusing to do the Pick Me Dance, and going No Contact. So what did you do to get on the Road to Indifference? Leave a comment and let me know what strategies worked best for you!

Stay Sweet, Be Strong

Note: If you don’t read Chump Lady then you should start reading her as soon as possible! Her Blog is this only thing I read that was the straight up truth, it helped get my head straight, and see what was done to me was abuse.