Grace

I usually start thinking about my One Little Word for the next year in November. Around Thanksgiving I start a whole mental process of reviewing the year and planning out the next year. This year I really struggled with my new word. I wanted it to be something that would be worthy of the space I am in and reflect the beginning of the new decade before me. It’s hard for me to absorb that I have been on the journey of healing for 5 years. I am actually surprised that I am where I am.

I am surprised by Grace.

I thought about a lot of words. In the past a word stood out. But this year it was more of a struggle. I think I struggled because the words I came up with were inadequate. Gratitude, Thrive, and Power were in the top ten, but none of them seemed to encompass what I was feeling. I have a deep sense of gratitude for being able to survive this firestorm. I feel like I am ready to thrive after finally finding my inner peace. And I know in my bones that it is finally time to step into my own power. Still, these words were not enough on their own. Not this year. Not for the start of a new decade. Then it came…

I am surprised by Grace.

Grace.

I have been a fan of Grace for most of my life. I love the idea that Jesus can make me more than I could ever be on my own. I have used Grace in my life, I have felt it uplift me, and support me, and magnify me. I would like to think I understood it. Partnering with Him is power. But in pondering it, and meditating on it, I realized that I didn’t really get it. I have deep gratitude for the Grace I received over the last 5 years. I know I would never have come this far without Him. Oh, I understand it superficially, and I can’t even pretend to believe that I really “get it.” I don’t. I realize it is through Grace that I will continue to thrive.

I love the definition that is in my bible dictionary:

“It is likewise through the grace of the Lord that individuals, through faith in the Atonement of Jesus Christ and repentance of their sins, receive strength and assistance to do good works that they otherwise would not be able to maintain if left to their own means. This grace is an enabling power that allows men and women to lay hold on eternal life and exaltation after they have expended their own best efforts.”

LDS Bible Dictionary

Do you see how GRACE is the word that encompasses all of the other words? It’s gratitude, it’s the source of power and the means by which I will continue to thrive. Even with this understanding, I know, deep down inside, that I still don’t get it. That is why I am going into a deep dive of Grace this year. It’s time to understand the depth of my gratitude, step into my power, and thrive as God intended it for me. I am excited to discover Grace on a deeper level and uncover what I really don’t understand, yet, about His Grace.

I have already taken the first steps on my journey into Grace. I even have a scripture that let me know in a powerful way that He has big plans for me this year. I don’t know if I am ready for this, but with His Grace, I know I will succeed:

Doctrine & Covenants 88:

78 Teach ye diligently and my agrace shall attend you, that you may be binstructed more perfectly in theory, in principle, in doctrine, in the law of the gospel, in all things that pertain unto the kingdom of God, that are expedient for you to understand;

79 Of things both in aheaven and in the earth, and under the earth; things which have been, things which are, things which must bshortly come to pass; things which are at home, things which are abroad; the wars and the perplexities of the cnations, and the judgments which are on the land; and a dknowledgealso of countries and of kingdoms—

80 That ye may be prepared in all things when I shall send you again to amagnify the calling whereunto I have called you, and the bmission with which I have commissioned you.

I already know what my mission is and, truthfully, it scares me. Someone once said that if it doesn’t scare you then it’s not worth your time.

So, Here we go…

I will be surprised by Grace.

Stay Sweet, Be Strong!