The process of my own healing has lead me down very interesting paths. Over the years I feel like I have been lead to healing modalities that would help me “for such as time as this.” Being thrust into severe trauma and PTSD has left me feeling alone, abandoned, and forgotten by just about everyone, but especially God. I don’t know that I have ever experienced anything like this before. As if being betrayed wasn’t enough, I also felt God had also betrayed me and left me alone for “fend for myself.” I did not expect this crisis of faith to ever happen to me. But it did. Many nights I would cry out to God, “Where are you and why have you left me so utterly and completely alone? I did nothing to cause or deserve this! Why?” Needless to say I was in a very dark place, unable to find the light. However, Heavenly Father is very merciful and reaches out to his daughters in every way he can in their hour of need. I feel that my journey towards energy healing was just such a Tender Mercy. It turns out that when a person experiences such extreme trauma that it sends them into darkness, through no fault of their own. This is the insidiousness of Satan, through addiction and betrayal trauma he is able to take down an entire family in one blow. The perpetrator and victims and thrust into the darkness together. I have always thought that pornography and sexual addiction were the perfect weapon of the Adversary, it turns out I was right. It destroys families and individuals, physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. Nothing is more thorough, or more devastating. It removes all light from everyone involved.
The job of the traumatized is to go toward the light, in every way possible, until you are reunited with Heavenly Father. Finding my way back to Him has been the hardest thing I have ever done! It took relying on the memory muscle of faith I had been exercising and developing all of my life. And it took relying on others, who had the knowledge and tools I needed, and trusting them when I could not even trust myself.
My energy healing journey began as a young married woman. Early in our marriage I could not get pregnant. I tired everything I could think of and anything that was suggested to me. Having exhasuted all modern medical remedies, I went with other less conventional healing processes. My desire to have children outwieghed my skeptical nature. I figured what could it hurt? I went to see an iridologist. She told me I had lots of imbalances in my body caused by childhood trauma. She put me on a regimen of herbs. I was pregnant within a few months. I was elated!
Seven years later, I was still unable to have another child. A friend talked to me about seeing her chiropractor husband. I thought it was stupid, but I went anyway. What can it hurt, right? It turned out that my 4th and 5th lumbar were pinching all the nerves going to and from my reporductive system. According to the Chiropractor, my getting pregnant the first time was a miracle, I agreed with him. This time it felt like I had a little more control. So we set up a treatment plan. He said it could take a year. I went to my appointment religiously.
It was in this process that I was introduced to muscle testing. it turns out the body knows what is wrong with it before we do. The subconsicene reveals the problems stored in the body through muscle testing. The quick version of how it works is that, if something is wrong, muscles will go weak, if everything is fine, muscles will be strong. Here is how to test it out for yourself: Hold your arm out in front of you or to the side about shoulder height. Have someone gently press on your outstretched hand to get a feel for your ability to resist the gentle pressure. You should be able to hold your arm steady. This will give you a baseline. Now place a small amount of sugar in the palm of your hand. When someone presses on your hand this time, you will feel a degree of weakness and your arm will drop. Now place something in the hand that is good for you, like an apple. Test again with gentle pressure. The arm will remain strong.
It’s interesting to do for a fun party trick for most people. But for me, it was significant how my body told the Chiropractor where the problems were and how to fix them. I was pregant within the year with my son. And I was a believer in Chiropractic care and muscle testing.